So that was that...

The weather has come out for us in fine form - I do not have time to update fully so here are a  few photos...

I hope you all had an amazing Christmas with your family and friends - bring on 2011!

XX

10 things before bed...

1.  Home truely is where the heart is...and my heart is here.
2.  Not looking foward to 7 hours of driving tomorrow to Wairoa/Mahia.
3. I love my mummy.
4. Had a great day out shopping with Miss Natalie.
5. I am excited to see Rory tomorrow...
6. 3 more sleeps till Santa.
7. Is Cairns a real place?  Because it all feels like a strange dream.
8. I am loving the snugs from one Miss Voodoo and one Miss Abby.
9. I am thirsty.
10. I am also kind of hungry...

mmmmmmmmmhmmmmmmmmmmmm...

It is beginning to feel a lot like Christmas...

Only three more sleeps, so excited!

Spent all day today cleaning - packed - well mostly.  Will just have a few things on the day.  Booked Rory in for a haircut (win!) - make it to Aqua Thursday and this morning which was great.  Went to the Esplanade Markets and got the last of the xmas shopping done.

Rory came home for the night last night - he left again this morning to Malanda to clean up the workshop for a few days - will be home Monday I think (I hope, we fly on Tuesday!)

Have my work Xmas Dinner up in Palm Cove on Monday night - so tomorrow will be my slowest day!  I have never wanted to wish a weekend away and make it go faster - but this is the one and only...time can slow down after that...

Off for another swim - 34 degrees is too hot to be inside...

I am not going to lie to others and prentend that everything is great on days that it is not. 

I am not going to lie to myself and pretend that everything is great on days that it is not.

I WILL make every effort to be positive when I am feeling positive and happy.

But in truth, nobody has a  life is like that, and I see no need to hide the bullshit and only express the happy.

Because that is a lie.

I am entitied to express when I am happy, sad, angry, hyper, tired, bored, irritated...you may choose to acknowledge it it, or choose to ignore it.

Since SOME people that like to call themselves my friends never bother to ask me how I am, when for the most part of the past 6 months I have been alone, with nobody to talk to or vent to, to have coffee with or to simply hash shit out...I need an outlet...I have chosen it.

If it irritates you, I make no apologies.

Maybe time to make some real life culls.

This shit is hard enough as it is, I am supporting my partner this time - he has done it for me and now it is my turn.  I never said this would be easy, it is one of the hardest things I have ever done.

It works both ways, TWO people make a relationship work.  Not just one owner.

Some fairly amazing people have shown me their true colours in the past 6 months.

Thankyou.

Oh, and FYI - the information is for the benefit of my parents and friends who bother to check in and see how I am.  But mostly for my mother, because she gives a shit and knows that I have not been coping.

And it is cheaper than txting across the ocean.

6 sleeps.

This week has been a shit.

Through and through.  I still have so much to do before we fly - and tomorrow is Thursday.  But I am concentrating on the positive things and the beautiful things.  Like seeing my Mummy and Daddy, my Nana and My Lori, Titan and Baby Ethan, Emma Pemma...and these two beautiful beings who have taught me more than my 26 years ever have...

Even over the phone they make me smile - and they give the best squeezy hugs...

xx

Sad Panda...

Goodbye Beautiful Feather Babies

You have been very much missed the last 6 months but you are going to be missed forever now.

Bubble and Toby you were the best - Zara will miss you too.

Weakend.

Finally -  a day where at 6pm I am comfortable exhausted enough to feel like going to bed at 9am will be successful.

Saturday sucked, Rory and I were going to head up to Lake Eacham and have a swim in the crater lake and then have dinner with Rorys Uncle up there.

Rory, being Rory managed to hit a pothole at the bottom of the Gillies Ranges doing about 100km.  Check tyres - no damage.  About 20min later and halfway up the winding Gillies the engine light comes on and the temperature gauge is redlining.

Crap.

Pull over, turn car off - can literally hear the water boiling in the Radiator.  Cracked Radiator?  Fuck.  Spend 40min sitting on the side of the road in the middle of the Rainforest with no reception.  Car cools down enough to empty any water we have into it.  Nothing is leaking.  Not a cracked Radiator?  Now what. 

This whole time every Tom, Dick, Harry and his Dog have driven past and NOBODY has even slowed down to ask if we need help.

Young couple drive past heading down the Gillies in a Rental Car.  A few min later they appear behind us on the side of the Road.  They give us all the water they have (on a 36 degree day) and ask if we need a lift out of the Ranges to get cellphone reception.  We decline as we were only about 3km from the top and from reception and more water.

Get talking a little - and lo and behold - they are two Kiwis from Auckland on holiday sussing out if to move to Cairns or not for a job.

Typical - at least 100 cars drove past us in that 40 min, all Australian (Cairns Locals more than likely) and two tourists in a Rental Car have the kindness to come and help us.  And to do this they needed to do a U-Turn on a dangerous and narrow foreign road.

Once again proof of the difference between Australians and Kiwis - reason #1244 why Australians Suck and reason #472936 why I am proud to be a New Zealander.

Thankfully Rorys Uncle is a Mechanic and we made it to him.  Turns out Rory slammed into that pothole so hard he managed to crack the brackets holding the Reserve Tank in and split the Tank.  A little Kiwi ingenuity and an H2GO bottle got us and the car home safe and sound, 1/2 a day on the phone got me a excellent condition replacement part for $44.

On an upside - got a callback for a job today - and they are sweet with me starting late January.

Oh, and 8 more sleep.

WIN!

Kittehs!!!!

Moss just skyped - Cat (which is actually the name of his Cat) had kittens about 4 weeks ago...

This is one of them...

‎4 Gorgeous Kittens needing a new home - 3 Female, 2 Black and 1 Black and White and 1 Black Boy - free to good homes...


If you know of anyone looking to have a cat, please let me know...If they are not homed in 2 weeks I will be having to take them to the SPCA when we get back to NZ...

HELLO DECEMBER!!!!

Good golly gosh, where did the last 12 months go!  Let alone the last 6 months - yes - that is how long we have been in Cairns now.

I am not onto the home stretch of the countdown - single digits and 9 sleeps to go.  No words can explain the excitement I am feeling about going home for 5 weeks.  At 1pm today the temperature was sitting at 35 degrees and steadily rising.  I swear when I go outside I can feel the air moisture on my tongue.  The water is not longer refreshing to swim in - Aqua Aerobics is becoming painful as it is like doing Aerobics at Miranda Hotpools and I can no longer go out for walks down the Esplanade as it actually makes me nauseous.  I am looking forward to long walks with Dad in the evenings when I am home.

Been doing a little bit of shopping.  No, that is a blatant lie.  I have been doing far too much shopping - but having dropped a size (two in some brands) is very exciting and I can wear things now I have not been able to wear before (well I have been able to wear but not felt good about them).  All summer stuff - and considering I live in perpetual summer now I don't feel SO bad.

I was bored the other night and I straightened Rory's hair...

to the best of the ability that my poor hair straighteners would allow! Suffice to say the are now broken - no shit - they are broken. The spat numerous sparks at me and went bang and smelt very suspicious. I booked the boy in for a haircut next week before we head back to NZ - to get rid of this gingy shit at the back of his hair - the result of not dying his hair anymore and spend hours in the blazing sun and a headfull of dust.

1 more week of work - mixed in with packing, getting a new reserve tank for the radiator on the car, organising bill payments for when we are away and cleaning the house.

But for now, it is time to cook some dinner.

Oh, and on that note - I am 300g away from my first goal of 10kg.

WIN!

xx