So that was that...

The weather has come out for us in fine form - I do not have time to update fully so here are a  few photos...

I hope you all had an amazing Christmas with your family and friends - bring on 2011!

XX

10 things before bed...

1.  Home truely is where the heart is...and my heart is here.
2.  Not looking foward to 7 hours of driving tomorrow to Wairoa/Mahia.
3. I love my mummy.
4. Had a great day out shopping with Miss Natalie.
5. I am excited to see Rory tomorrow...
6. 3 more sleeps till Santa.
7. Is Cairns a real place?  Because it all feels like a strange dream.
8. I am loving the snugs from one Miss Voodoo and one Miss Abby.
9. I am thirsty.
10. I am also kind of hungry...

mmmmmmmmmhmmmmmmmmmmmm...

It is beginning to feel a lot like Christmas...

Only three more sleeps, so excited!

Spent all day today cleaning - packed - well mostly.  Will just have a few things on the day.  Booked Rory in for a haircut (win!) - make it to Aqua Thursday and this morning which was great.  Went to the Esplanade Markets and got the last of the xmas shopping done.

Rory came home for the night last night - he left again this morning to Malanda to clean up the workshop for a few days - will be home Monday I think (I hope, we fly on Tuesday!)

Have my work Xmas Dinner up in Palm Cove on Monday night - so tomorrow will be my slowest day!  I have never wanted to wish a weekend away and make it go faster - but this is the one and only...time can slow down after that...

Off for another swim - 34 degrees is too hot to be inside...

I am not going to lie to others and prentend that everything is great on days that it is not. 

I am not going to lie to myself and pretend that everything is great on days that it is not.

I WILL make every effort to be positive when I am feeling positive and happy.

But in truth, nobody has a  life is like that, and I see no need to hide the bullshit and only express the happy.

Because that is a lie.

I am entitied to express when I am happy, sad, angry, hyper, tired, bored, irritated...you may choose to acknowledge it it, or choose to ignore it.

Since SOME people that like to call themselves my friends never bother to ask me how I am, when for the most part of the past 6 months I have been alone, with nobody to talk to or vent to, to have coffee with or to simply hash shit out...I need an outlet...I have chosen it.

If it irritates you, I make no apologies.

Maybe time to make some real life culls.

This shit is hard enough as it is, I am supporting my partner this time - he has done it for me and now it is my turn.  I never said this would be easy, it is one of the hardest things I have ever done.

It works both ways, TWO people make a relationship work.  Not just one owner.

Some fairly amazing people have shown me their true colours in the past 6 months.

Thankyou.

Oh, and FYI - the information is for the benefit of my parents and friends who bother to check in and see how I am.  But mostly for my mother, because she gives a shit and knows that I have not been coping.

And it is cheaper than txting across the ocean.

6 sleeps.

This week has been a shit.

Through and through.  I still have so much to do before we fly - and tomorrow is Thursday.  But I am concentrating on the positive things and the beautiful things.  Like seeing my Mummy and Daddy, my Nana and My Lori, Titan and Baby Ethan, Emma Pemma...and these two beautiful beings who have taught me more than my 26 years ever have...

Even over the phone they make me smile - and they give the best squeezy hugs...

xx